I cry for
my sins each day
and the one
which hurts me the most is
me and take me by my hand
to show me
Yes you are
right here with me
to take one
steep at a time
And as I
have said time and time again
by the nun's hands
Not by God's
I have said
by the (church) because
that is why I say the church.
I have told the names of the nuns who abused me
and I have named them in my story,
I know who abused me
and their names I will never forget.
I feel let down by the [church] nuns/priest
because they know the truth
and do not want to admit
to the abuse which they did to us
because the acknowledgment to the abuse
will set us free from them and their lies.
The two priest who I have spoken to
have been sent away to another part of New Zealand
so as I or them do not have anything to do with me.
Now how am I to talk to the church [priest]
when they do this to me every time I want to talk to them?
Can you not see the same thing happening
It is just like here on the cathnews site,
NO we don't want you here
because you talk about the same things all the time.
Now if I was to go away
I will feel that I have let down so many people
who can not speck
and some one has to be their voice.
Don't you worry,
I know what abuse is
and like Jesus I too felt the whips
and as I was tied to the bed each
I know the pain we all feel within.
Please God forgive them
because I can not.
You see each day there is something which
brings it all back to me
and I can not give my pain to Jesus/God
because Jesus died for me on the cross
and this is what I though of each and every time
I was thrashed
by the nuns
as the nuns and priest stole my soul.
After the nuns had stripped me of my innocence
and what little I had left
the priest took
by sexually abusing me.
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