I Cry Each Day

I cry for my sins each day

and the one which hurts me the most is

the sins to forgive

Please teach me and take me by my hand

to show me

Yes you are right here with me

to take one steep at a time

with you.

And as I have said time and time again

the abused

was done by the nun's hands

Not by God's hand.

I have said by the (church) because

the nuns/priest

represents Gods church

and that is why I say the church.

I have told the names of the nuns who abused me

and I have named them in my story,

I know who abused me

and their names I will never forget.

I feel let down by the [church] nuns/priest

because they know the truth

and do not want to admit

to the abuse which they did to us

because the acknowledgment to the abuse

will set us free from them and their lies.

The two priest who I have spoken to

have been sent away to another part of New Zealand

so as I or them do not have anything to do with me.

Now how am I to talk to the church [priest]

when they do this to me every time I want to talk to them?

Can you not see the same thing happening

world wide.

It is just like here on the cathnews site,

NO we don't want you here

because you talk about the same things all the time.

Now if I was to go away

I will feel that I have let down so many people

who can not speck

and some one has to be their voice.

Don't you worry,

I know what abuse is

and like Jesus I too felt the whips

and as I was tied to the bed each night

then whipped

I know the pain we all feel within.

Please God forgive them

because I can not.

You see each day there is something which

brings it all back to me

and I can not give my pain to Jesus/God

because Jesus died for me on the cross

and this is what I though of each and every time

I was thrashed

by the nuns

as the nuns and priest stole my soul.

After the nuns had stripped me of my innocence

and what little I had left

the priest took

by sexually abusing me.