Re-abuse

Over here in New Zealand, it is totally different how

the sexual abuse
of children is treated between Boys and Girls.

The men who were sexually
abused when little,

are having something done for them

while we women are
left in our pain and the priest's walk away from us.

After I told a Canon Law priest in 2001 about

what happened to me,

he was heard,

using it as a conversation with some other priest

in Wellington

and I was told about this

by one of the priest's sister
after he told her about it.

How can this priest violate and disrespect

what I had told him

and then to have no heart or feelings

of how I felt when I had told him about the
sexual abuse to me.

It was bad enough for me to talk to this priest

and they are still treating women

in the same manner

as they always have through out the years.

We women want justice done

and we will not give up until we do.

We need respect from the priest

who interview us

about priest sexual abuse

and we do not want to be talked down to,

by your other priest.

We are not the ones who

wronged the innocent helpless children,

we are the children you sexually abused

and still you treat us with no respect.
We need to be heard by you

and to be believed and acknowledged.

Just remember,

God knows the truth like we do

and you Bishops who send
the priest's who sexually abuse innocent children

away to other countries
are just as guilty

as the priest who did this vile horrible thing

and
this is the same in the eyes of God.

You should be talking to the priest's
and nuns who sexually abuse innocent children.

Who Violated little children's bodies

and who played around with our minds.

Hey! come on,

What have you to say to the priest's

and nuns who sexually
abuse babies

and children in the Catholic orphanages.

If only the Pope would take today,

his birthday

and think of all the
children in the Catholic orphanages world wide,

who never knew the
dates of their birthdays

and who never knew their real age until years
later and even when we gave each other

a holy picture or a holy medal
which we would get blessed by a priest

before we gave it away,

it was taken off us.

I know the priest's are anointed by God

and that it should be for ever:
BUT, look here it is shamefull that the priest

who sexually abused us had
not given that a thought

of how they have also offended Jesus

and they
sexually abused

and re-abused children in the name of God.

What us innocent unwanted children could tell you

all it would blow your minds,

it is so mind-boggling

that it would send the Catholic
Church into shock.

You have only heard a little of

what went on behind
those red brick walls

and another thing what went on in the
confessionals to us little children each week.

We came out of the
confessionals as if we were

dead for what was done to us in there

and I will never tell

because I feel so betrayed by God

for what these priest's did to me.

How do you expect me to forgive them,

for what they did to me?.

I CAN NOT.

I will leave this up to God to do

and I do not think God has turned
a blind eye to what He has seen in His church

and saw what you priest's
and nuns did to us little innocent unwanted children.

He is waiting for you all

and for you bishops

who have sent the priest's away

to yet another
country to re-offend again.

We children were sexually abused

and abused of body, mind and soul,

in the name of Jesus by nuns

and priest all throughout our childhood from
little babies,

children and young ladies and men.

How on earth can we look any priest and nun

in the face today and that
was one thing we were not allowed to do,

look a person in the face and
to this day I feel awkward if I do this

and don't they say today that
if you can not look a person

in the face that you are guilty.

What I feel is that the nuns

and priest's told us not to look at them
while they abused us,

because they did not want to see the face of
God's innocent children through us.

Everything the nuns

and priest's did to us

was done in the name of God,
so to me they also abused God

and, did He not say?

that if you harm
any of my children you do also to Him.

You have hurt God so much
through us

and you used us little children to to hurt God.

You see you
have not read your Bibles?

it is all in there about God's little
children whom he loved so much.

YOU TOOK THAT AWAY FROM US LITTLE CHILDREN AS WELL.

I do not see any priest trying to give back

what they took from us
children and that is God's love for us.

I know this is what is missing
in my life and that I should forgive.

Have you seen Fonzy of Happy Days?

How he trys to say sorry,

well that is how I feel, because I can not.

I was sexually abused

from the age of 18 months to 15 years

and no one will help me.

The priest I have told have been sent away

and I would like to know

where is the Good Shepherds of this Catholic Church

who should be here to help us.

I would like my 24 years of abuse story

in the Catholic orphanages told
to the Pope.

I want him to know the truth

which was done to us little
innocent unwanted children of the Catholic Church

world wide for so
many years.