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Ann Free Spirit | Synopsis | Mother Francis of Rome | Rev. Fr. Thomas Doyle | We Stand By You Rev. Fr. Doyle | A Letter of Hope | A Little Help Fom a Friend | From a Friend | A Priest Doing God's Work | Innocents was Taken | Mr. Savano | Pope John Paul II | Pope John Paul II | Nun Suddened by the Truth | Shield accused nun | Abuse by nun's hands, not God's | Together we Stand | Priest Abusing Nuns | Next to Godliness.. | First Stirke Out | The New Cardinals | Catholic News Site | The Testament Site | Reaching: Out to Stuart & Paul | A Little Child Stands in Line | A Lonly Little Child | Nobody's Child | Rosary Beads in The Hall | I Give You My Hand In Friendship | When I Hear These Things | One More Nights Sleep | If Only | Humpty Dumpty | I Love You | Don't Let Go Until Tomorrow | My Dearest Lover | The Lonely Rose | How Did I Survive???? | Children Need Love | A Friend is What I Want to Find | I Give You My Hand In Friendship | When the Night Comes | Who Am I??? | There Are So Many Tears | Maria, What I see in You | Re-abuse | You Were Always Here With me | Fear Within 2003 | Elvis!!! | My Life Was Stolen From Me | God Is My Witness | I want My Freedom From My Torment & Pain | Give Me my Time to Heal. | Nuclear War | When the nuns had their fates | How do They Live With Themseleves? | Re-abuse 2002 | We Want Our Faith Back | Spiritual Abuse | My Faith was Strong | Trust was Broken | I Cry Each Day | Bless me Father | Hear our Cries | The nuns Picked on the same children | Apologize to us | Like Saints and Martyrs | Half Truths | Tell The World the Truth | No More Lies | Nun wrongly claimed dead | Hurt so Bad | Acknowledgment & Justice | Innocent Unwanted Children of Nazareth House | My Family | Our Wedding Day 1965 | My Son Robert 1 | My Son Robert II | My Daughter Joanne | My Daughter Rachel | My Daughter Bridget | My Four Grand Children | My Mother's Family | Mother I | Mother I

Trust was Broken

Trust was Broken

I looked up to the priest and nuns and the day the priest sexually abused me

[which I did not know this at that time]

I lost all faith in the church and this is because I knew he had done something to me and I felt it was wrong and that I had done something bad to be punished this way by a priest.

Now once I realised that the priest had sexually abused me, all thoughts were going through my head,

What if he had got me pregnant,

I would not have known how this would have happened to me, but the priest had already given the nuns that answer by telling them I was seeing boys.

I did not.

The priest lied to the nuns.

I can not go to church.

I did not take my children to the church,

I did not send my children to a Catholic school. How do you think I live from day to day? with this guilt within me of not following my faith and by letting my children down. It is this which is hurting me so and my faith with God, is what the priest took away from me that day.

And now no priest will see me and it is tearing me apart. Sexual abuse by a priest is so wrong and it never leaves you. It is there in the front of your mind all the time and you can not face it full on because of the trust which was broken for any Priest and most of all he destoryed my time with God.

I am so lost without my faith.



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