My Faith was Strong

My faith was strong

and I think still is and you have not listened to what I have said. It is the people who have abused me who are within the church, who have wrecked my life and how I feel for the Church.

Because I do not go to Church does not mean I am no more a Catholic than you are. I do not hate the Catholic Church, it is the priest and nuns who have wronged me and robed me of my faith, for what they did to me.

I just hope that there is someone out there who will put a good word to God for me, because I sure need that, as I have and I know I have done wrong by not going to Church. I feel fear and sadness when I go to Church and it is so hard for me as the priest who represent God are not doing what they should be doing. And that is being A Shepard who looks after his sheep and lambs.

An if you want to know, I was 15 years old when the priest sexual abused me. I was innocent of all the worldly things and of boys and men, as a mater of fact I had never spoken to a boy or man before that day, I had never met a boy or man until that day.

I went through my Catholic teachings in the two orphanages right through and becoming a Child of Mary and I can tell you now I kept all my promises I made to Mary that day and my main one was staying a virgin until I got Married.

NOW TELL ME THIS. and this is what hurt the most. Because the priest sexual abused me at the age of 15years and the three women who sexual abused me from the age of 18months to five years old and the five older girls from 5years to 10years old. Was I still a virgin when I married my husband.?

You do not know the pain I go through every day because of this and the priest and nuns are sent to another country to re-abuse again and again. What you need here is more of the men and women who were sexual abused and abused by priest and nuns to tell you what you do not know or want to hear.

I need acknowledgment from the

priest and nuns for the abuse which they did to me and all other children around the world.

All the Bishop need to take heed of what the truth is and that they too are as guilty as the nuns and priest who sexual abused the little innocent children [boys & girls] years ago.

Stop hiding the nuns and priest because your day also will come when you face God and us children of the church who were sexual abused and abused of all kinds and you also knew about it and you let it go on from year to year by sending your priest and nuns around the world

to sexual abuse and abuse

children again and again.