The nuns Picked on the same children

The nuns would pick out some of us, as the same one with me were always put across the bed at night with three nuns thrashing us and they just would not stop, after which we had to kneel down and say sorry to the Rev. Mother Pachell.

They tell me to forgive and to forget it, but I can not. I had 24years of abuse from the St. Joseph's nuns who were the Good Shepherd nuns up to 10years of age and then the Nazareth House nuns up to the age of 24years.

The abuse is too beded in me to forgive them and I hurt so much, the pain won't go away and I have tried to put it back of my mind for years, still it comes back at me. My torment, I wish on no one. It is like when the nuns told us that if we want God to love us we had to hurt ourselves for God. But is not what I am going through the pain the nuns had cause me years ago, is not what God wants to see. God did not do this to me.

Please Jesus and Mary Look down on me and help to ease my pain to. I now want some peace, my pain, hurt and torment are too great for me to bear. WHY! WHY! WHY! was I ever born at all to go though this torment and pain, which is none of my doing.

I WAS A UNWANTED, INNOCENT ORPHAN, “ILLEGITIMATE” LITTLE BABY, WITH BAD BLOOD IN ME as the nuns always told me. And this was how they treated me.