You
know there are so many tears
I have wept and more
than
often than not now days
I
weep tears of joy,
relief
of the removal of the anxiety,
pain
and distress
of
knowing that people believe me,
you
can not imagine how that feels for me.
It
is very hard for me
to
talk in front of some one
because
1 can not stand it,
it
is like when I stood in front of the nuns
As
they said those bad words to me,
1
see them there with me, that is why
1
find it much easier writing it down
as
no one can see me then.
1
pray that someone
somewhere
will whisper a prayer
to
God on my behalf:
as
1 have lost my faith in the
Roman
Catholic Church,
"Power
to Abuse,"
Is
the power of adults
to
hurt Children remains,
I
call out because of the pain I am in,
it
is too great and unless you yourself
were
treated the same way as me,
please
do not judge me with your words
I
cry for my sins each day
Dear Jesus and My Mother Mary,
I
cry for my sins each day and the one which hurts me the most is the sine to forgive. Please teach me and take me by my hand
to show me the way as I do need a helping hand.
You looked after me when I was a child and I am still that little girl
who has been turned away from your faith and I do know deep down that you have not let me go. Please help me with my cross
as I don't think I go go on much longer, it brings tears to my heart to see how much you have done for me over the years.
You are always in the background waiting for me to fall, to pick me up again.
Dear Mother Mary, How good, Pure and
truly you are and please give my son a kiss from me and rest his head on your lap. I do miss him so, just like I miss you
and Jesus. I know you were are with me and no I will not forget have you gave me my strength to live through my childhood.
I
will be with you again this year on Good friday at three when your son Died 2004 years ago and Mary if you do not mind, I
will be by myself. Please forgive me for my slowness in coming forward as it was with you and Jesus I have had the strength
to do what I am doing today. Thank you, Dear Jesus and Mary for all your love and for helping me. Ann
