A Friend is What I Want to Find

I sit here at my computer
I think some times I am alright
then you come along
to haunt me yet again
With memories that are not right

My pain never leaves me
so if you see me cry
please do not turn away
as I need some one
to hold my hand tonight

When life seems as though
it is running smoothly
once again you jump at me
from out of the dark

You take over me
which scares me
and I am in such fright
I quickly look around
to see who is standing there
but you I do not see
for I fight it with all my might

It is all in my mind they say
it will soon go away
So if you want to talk to me
I am here if you want me to stay

But when I need some one to talk to
no one do I find
for all the people I know

have gone away
and all that is left of me
I should have left behind.

If I should need a friend
and you were still here with me
you would come to me right away
and be by my side with me

The kind words I miss from you
My son I wish to hear once more
if you were here you would have helped me
to close that door for ever more

These nuns and priest who abused me
keep coming to my mind
I wish that they would leave me
for a friend is what I want to find.