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As the time comes closer
I feel the fears which is in my heart
it has never
left me
so I have never grown
to excel in anything
The fear of the nuns/priest
is like a cloud over
me
which covers
the very being of my soul
Abuse destroys and
decays the mind and soul
It leaves you
devastated
and destroys you completely
it degrades and humiliates you
with no trust for anyone
I am out
there in Limbo
because of the death of my soul
with no hope to heal
The injuries inflicted on me,
were severe
physical beatings;
with spiritual abuse each day
I served a 24 year sentence
in what I now call a prison
and
the sentence carried on and on
I was destined for suffering
and for failure
I don't have any confidence
The
only thing I am guilty of
is telling the truth
I was shown only cruelty,
pain, hate and abuse.
for they
killed me time after time
with their hands
and also abuse with their tongue
I was as the nuns called
the
problem of the
unmarried mother
born out of wedlock
A rebel of bad blood
an unwanted child
to all who knew
me.
I have carried this secret for years.
Thinking it was me who was at fault
I could not tell of my Shame
I
was tormented and embarrassed
The shame is mine alone to bare
I will not be dictated to by these Nazareth house
nuns.
It has been 40 years since I was in the care of the Roman Catholic Church. During the
first 24 years of my life I was physically, emotionally & spiritually abused by people who were ordained and approved
& who represented God through the Roman Catholic Church.
These people have scarred me for life to the severest
degree. I have been unable to live a normal life due to the cruel & hideous treatment I received.
The nuns [Church]
took from me my childhood innocense, my family, they took my children, my education, they took from me the ability to trust,
my self esteem, my self confidence, they took from me safety & security, they took from me any spirituality and they also
took from me my body.
I was brutally beaten, sexual violated, abused, emotionally manipulated & spiritually laden
with twisted malicious teachings. I was left with a battered body and for 40 years I have had to carry this burden myself.
I
am no longer a child in the care of the catholic nuns, and I will no longer allow myself to be manipulated, or be at the mercy
of the catholic church.
I am a Mother, Grandmother and I will not be dictated to by the very organisation that has
caused me so much pain throughout my entire life.
The priest and nuns who abused me will have to answer to a greater
judge. Some people still don’t understand what it is like to be sexually abused and to be violated as a child, a baby
of God. These men and woman of the cloth who are not mentally ill or sick, they are pure EVIL. There are two deaths, one is
of the body and the other is of the soul. The sin of the soul is one sin, which is against the Holy Spirit. It is the only
sin not forgiven in heaven.
Ann
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