Spiritual Abuse

What we want acknowledgment to the abuse which was done to us and we want our spiritual part with God back.

I have gone through this with the Catholic Church and I have never doubted God because of what was done to me in the name of God. It is that I am a lost soul and I have told this in two mediations, one were the Bishop was with us in 2001 and the other one in 2003 with two nuns and their two lawyers, my lawyer Stuart, a mediator, a Professor and a physicist who both came over from Australia as well as the two nuns.

It is the spiritual side which I have lost, is destroying me so much because I love my God and I want to find Him again within me.

This is how I always thought that the church is suppose to do, go out to the sinners, the poor, the needy, the sinners and the lost souls who have left the church, The Good Shepherd is a good sample of this.

We are the present day Saints and Martyrs. Still suffering persecution for and from the church we all love.

This is what got me and you do not know the pain we are in because I do love our catholic church and I can not go to it. My faith for God, is good and I cry out because I am not worthy to go to receive him and it tears at my heart each Sunday and feast days, if only I had a different up bringing life would be so sweet.

With Easter coming up soon it really gets me, when they tried to break Jesus's spirit, as this is what happened to me, from the age of five years old.

My Little Flower. How she loved God and she suffered so much for Jesus and I tried so hard to do the same as I so much wanted to be like her, but I failed. I could not hold my tears back, I did not let myself down I let My Love for God down. Theresa the Little Flower, who put stones in her shoes because she wanted to suffer for the God she loved and she died at such a young age for God whom she loved so much.

I have heard not a word about the spiritual side for me and in Gods eyes I see myself unclean and I pray that one day God will send me a good priest who will see God who is in me and not see me as a sinful women who has turned away from His Church.

Why havn't the Bishop's of New Zealand followed through with our faith?

Some of us asked for this and I, if you have read my story, I have always told you of my lost soul, of how Jesus and His Mother Mary have always been with me and of how muddle I am about my faith because of how God's name was used to abuse me sexual and abuse me of my

body, soul and my mind.