I will be with you again this year on Good Friday at three

when your son died 2004 years ago

and Mary if you do not mind,

I will be by myself.

Please forgive me

for my slowness in coming forward

as it was with you and Jesus

I have had the strength

to do what I am doing today.

How blind I have been all these years,

not to see your pain as you carried your cross

and died for my sins.

Please forgive me Dear Jesus,

because I have caused you so much pain

and I see how these men nailed you to the cross

had no mercy for you

and how your Mother Mary

must have felt

as she saw you carry your own cross of death up that hill,

how she saw you fall down

and she could not help you.

I went to see you today

and I waked with you a little way,

but I did not go to the top of the hill with you

as the pain was too much for me to bear,  

I felt so weak

and like a weasel

 I left you again to carry your cross alone.

When will I be strong again Dear Jesus?

Please help me to bear my cross

of shame with you,

because I do so want to walk beside you

all the way with your Mother Mary

beside me as well.

I do love you Jesus and Mary

and I will be with you both on Good Friday,

but please help me on my way with you,

as I do fall down 

and go the wrong way some  times. 

I am not worthy enough for even been with you.

So please hear my voice

and look down on me

and hold my hand to your heart,

Let me feel your love Dear Jesus

and give me faith in you,

which I so long for.